i had to dump this somewhere. Sometimes I like to write out my personal problems and later delete them in a notepad document or something. I feel like I kind of need the advice now so feel free to leave some if you want. It's appreciated.
How does a person become good at talking about things? Or how do people find out just what to say on the spot? Something I've observed recently is during a conversation someone will randomly spew a joke and if it's good more people will throw something in. I've never been able to do that
Without any sippy sappy stuff I'll go out and say I'm pretty boring to talk to and I'm generally unfunny. I will sometimes have my little quips and funny puns here and there but overall anyone would rather go talk to someone else than me if they had the choice. That mainly applies IRL but also here I guess.
Anyway, up until last year I was very anti social and had no particular group of friends to hang out with. Eventually I got close with one group and have enjoyed myself since, but I'm feeling incredibly distant from all of them now. Maybe it's because I can't start up meaningful conversations or they just know that I have a boring personality and have given up on me. I'm finding it really hard to make new friends (i.e. this girl i like in my art class) because any conversations we have go no where and the one time I had the perfectchance to have a meaningful conversation with her to get to know her we ended up being silent for a whole class period. Since then she hasn't said a word to me.
But this isn't a post about her. I've read in some thread a post made by Luis where he stated that watching people talking would be helpful in a situation such as mine, but that hasn't helped. I've learned recently that my conversation skills aren't nearly as bad as I thought, as I could always hold a good conversation with people if I need to, but I just can't lift one off the ground. I can't think of anything interesting to talk about.
Would 1 or several comedy series help me? Would a multiple stand up special marathon help? If so, who should I watch?
UGH I DONT KNOW @@@@@@@@@
I'm not depressed. Just at a high point of sadness.